somuchtotalkabout!

Oh, I have missed you blog!

The past two weeks have been CRAZY!  My new job keeps me super busy = no time to blog, no time to read blogs, no time to fb.  Love being this busy at work!

I'm still smober.  Miracle.

Updates:

- Weighed in at WW on Saturday.  Down 1.4 for a total of 57.2!  Planning to weigh-in tomorrow AM.

- Started training for the Charlottesville 10-miler.  Still not sure if I'm going to do it - Will see how training goes this winter.  I really don't like running...

- Ran a 5k with my friend, Anita!

Spiritual work:

I'm trying to work on my judgement of others.  When I am judging others, it means that I am also judging myself.  When I find myself talking about other people or thinking mean thoughts in my head, I try to think, "God bless them, God bless them, God bless them."  It helps.

WWMD?

She would work out.

Work outs planned for this weekend: 

- Swim today

- Saturday:  Charlottesville 10- miler training & 3-mile walk

- Sunday:  rest day or gym?  Will see how I feel.

Hasta luego.

xxx.K

I GOT THE JOB!

I feel like a total super-hero today.

I got the job!  Part-time to start.  Working in WELLNESS. 

I really thought that I had to be at goal weight to work in wellness.  False.

This job search process has been LONG and difficult.

I am SO excited.  Thank you for all of your support!

Guess what I'm doing this weekend?  Going to the first training session for the Charlottesville 10-miler!

I have not signed up for the race (March 2013) yet...

Will see how training goes through the winter.

I really don't enjoy running.  But, I like losing weight and I like being fit.

If you hear of any pet-sitting/house-sitting gigs in Charlottesville, let me know!

Hasta luego.

xxx.K



Eff it.



When I was on my bike a few weeks ago, some asshole yelled at me, "Hey fat girl!"

A lot of my weight loss success can be attributed to just saying, "Eff it."  Fattest girl in bikram.  Eff it.  Shiz jiggling all over the place while I attempt to run down the street.  Eff it.  Riding my bike with my big old ass hanging off the back.  Eff it.  It's none of my business what other people think about me.  I repeat:  It's none of my business what other people think about me.

I promise you that five years from now no one is going to come up to you and say, "Weren't you that fat girl at bikram five years ago?"  Why won't they?  Because they don't care.  Everyone is so obsessed with themselves.  And people have bad memories.  And we are going to be skinny in five years.  I am taking action now - so, five years from now I won't be the "fat girl in bikram".

I think about Mama Laughlin.  She would cry when she was on the treadmill jiggling at the beginning of her weight loss journey.  Then she would tell herself, "this is the very thing that makes it go away."  I think about that as I jiggle my shiz all over Charlottesville.  Eff it!



Had my second round interview this afternoon.  I met with three people individually.  Nervous in the first meeting.  2nd meeting - she asked me, "how often do you reconcile your checking account?"  Really?  fml.  3rd meeting = fine.

Do I feel great about the interviews?  No.  It's funny what two years of interviewing and not getting a job will do to your self-esteem.  My winning personality is no longer enough.

What I forgot to do before going in to my interview:  Pray.  It would have helped.  I wish that I always thought to pray when I'm going into a situation that is anxiety producing.  It's not my first thought or second or third.  Here's something else that I could have done - I could have asked God to be present with me in my interview.

Going to the dog park tonight and then a chili cookoff!  Sounds so lesbotronic.

Hasta luego.

xxx.K

Screw Perfection.

I love love love this!

My temp position ends on Friday.  Don't know where I'm going to be on Monday.  Trying to have faith.  I know that I'll be taken care of - I will be fine.  It's still anxiety producing.  What can I do to take care of myself today?  Stay out of my house.  Meet a friend for coffee after work.  Go to the gym.  Take action.  And...be gentle with myself!

My interview went well yesterday.  Have been asked to come in for a second round tomorrow.  Deep breaths.  Had a rough afternoon/early evening yesterday.  Made myself go to the gym for a swim.  Only 25 minutes, but I did it.  Going to Body Pump tonight!

Happy to be a non-smoker.

Hasta luego.

xxx.K

Pretty muddy.

Deleted the before pic...

After.

Proud of myself for running the entire 5k (one walk break).  Haven't really been running lately.  A lot of cross-training, swimming, and biking.  Think I'll swim tonight.

Motivation is slowly returning.  

Have a super fun interview tomorrow.  

Wish me luck!

Hasta luego.

xxx.K

Two words:

Diva. Cup.

For years, my sister would talk about her love of the Diva Cup.  And for years, I was skeptical.  Ladies, hear me now; the Diva Cup will change your life.  So much easier, better for the environment and your wallet.  The learning curve is steep but worth it.  The end.

"We have so much time, and so little to do! 

Strike that, reverse it."  Willy Wonka

Super busy weekend planned:  Winner Winner Chicken Dinner potluck tonight, WW weigh-in, Mud Run in Richmond tomorrow, Hookah Bar and Male Strippers on Saturday night, Sunday Funday!

I will be making Trader Joe's cornbread for the potluck tonight.  They say it's amazing.

Clue to our Mud Run Team name:  We will be wearing mustaches and getting dirty.

Still smober.  Meryl is so hot.

Hasta luego.

xxx.K

Precor.

If you have six minutes and want to have a happy cry, watch this video:

Crushed me.

Saw this pic on Pinterest.  

Had to do a double take to make sure it wasn't me.  

Negs - Don't wear thongs.

I'm really hoping that leggings are out of style when I hit goal weight.  

I'm so sick of wearing them.  With my current body, they are my uniform.

Current reads:

Life Changing!  If you are a single woman, get it.  I'm serious.

Having a tough time getting through this one...

Started reading it because of this article:  Joyce Meyer, How to Succeed at Being Yourself

Posts that are helping with my motivation slump:

1)  Diary of an Aspiring Loser - How I survive a slump

- Love how Michelle talks about Waiting It Out and being Patient.

2)  Miss Madison's Charmed Life - Motivation

Free Food Does Not Mean Point Free.

Hasta luego.

xxx.K